When I started this blog, my intention was to chronicle our adventure of moving away from the city and commercialism and starting a slow life in the countryside. It has turned out to be so much more for me but I find myself now in a catch-22 situation. Do I continue in this vein or do I also include my personal feelings and beliefs. I find that I need to blog about these things too to give a more complete picture but I find myself holding back because I have so many people reading this blog who I know in real life. This in itself should not limit me if I am true to myself and my friends however, as I found when my relationship ended earlier this year, I could not really express myself fully because my ex and his wonderful family are readers of this blog and the last thing I would want to do is offend them so I started to hold things back. Also, as I progress through this change in my life I find myself investigating my beliefs (both spiritual as well as political) and I would so like to blog about these things but again I think – that some of the things I may want to say could possibly upset some of my family members and friends although when I stopped and analysed this feeling – I would be able to tell them these things in a personal conversation quite easily. Maybe it is just the thought of opening up my soul to discuss a controversial topic that makes me vulnerable and I don’t like the feeling….
Picture from celestial art.
I guess the answer for me would be to start a totally anonymous blog where I could chat about these topics – but then I feel that I am not being true to my original blog by leaving out the emotional side of my adventures.
A case in point – how do I cope with discussing my relationship status and my adventures back into the dating world (a frightening prospect for me) as I know my ex-partner and his family and some potential suitors may all read my blog – do I just hold it all back till I am seriously involved with someone – or do I tell of my adventures (which could be hilarious) and offend some of my readers (if it is about them?) I would love to hear your opinions on this – either as one of my friends or family or as someone who writes a blog who has also found themselves in a similar situation.